It is a
well-established fact that getting into a medical college is not a piece of
cake," I wrote in Raigzaar about four years ago, as a public-places-white-coat wearing, brimming with enthusiasm
first-year student. Now, from the vantage point of pristine copies of Harpers,
Guytons, Robbins, and Davidsons, I modify that statement: "It is a
well-established fact that getting through medical college is not a piece of
cake."
Nobody
prepares you for the overwhelming sense of unpreparedness that engulfs you in your
final year. Exiting Lecture Hall 1 just as my seniors did four years ago, I
search for a glimpse of my naive self in the sea of first-year students. Back
then, my seniors seemed to have everything figured out, exuding confidence and
knowledge. They never confused Bruzdinski with Kernig, nor considered axillary
lymph nodes as mere figments of imagination invented as alibis to practice tickling on patients. They were probably the
experts who discerned Grade 1 murmurs with ease. As for me, I often wonder if
the faint pink hue on my male patients' nails is mehndi or a subtle sign of
underlying kidney injury, a perplexity that eludes the many
proficient doctors otherwise monitoring the patient. And the conjunctiva remains a
mystery—should I search for pallor in the pink part on the inside of the lower
eyelids or the slightly pinker area beneath the globe? Or perhaps it's the more
inferior part of the eye? They say, "You are who you surround yourself
with." Well, one of my friends once held a stomach model during Abdomen
stage and proudly called it a bladder.
One
constant struggle throughout my medical college journey has been arriving on
time for the first lecture. There's no valid explanation or external
blame—whether it's a wonky circadian rhythm, occasional hypersomnolence,
traffic, roads, or skyrocketing petrol prices. We've all experienced the
guilt-ridden entrance into the lecture hall, hugging the side wall, desperately
wishing it would envelop us and transport us to the farthest row, away from the
risk of inadvertently catching fragments of the ongoing lecture. Amidst this,
I've developed immense respect for our teachers. I've witnessed classes where
rows resembled graveyards, heads slumping onto backpacks, while the teacher
diligently expounded obscure mechanisms of diseases aaa-currence. It's been five years, spending
countless hours with friends, yet we must continually catch up on national
politics during class, all the while knowing the teacher is periodically glancing in our direction. After all “Darr kay agay jeet hay".
The
canteen remains a perpetual disappointment. Nestle should consider paying
dividends to our college canteen, for it is the sole source of
nourishment there,
apart from the occasional samosa my friends coerce me into buying. To those
fellow juniors and classmates who dare to purchase more than Nestle products, I
salute your resilient microbiota. You are the living embodiment of the hygiene
hypothesis. Relaxation spaces are nonexistent; benches to sit on are an elusive
dream. Students perch on stairs, wander through corridors in repetitive loops,
speeding up or slowing down based on their desire for privacy in their
conversations from other overtaking groups. Perhaps the administration should invest in traffic lights within the
corridors—common rooms seem redundant after all.
Nevertheless change
has permeated into our college. When I encounter
alumni or reminisce
with juniors, it becomes evident that things have shifted. The exact cause
eludes definition. Perhaps it's the aftermath of the post-COVID world or
individual factors at play. The college has changed, for better or worse. It
now requires
greater inertia to accomplish tasks. People seem more focused on their
individualistic expressions. Events like the literary week, which were once
prominent highlights of the academic year, now receive less than a week of
attention. Even places like Crush Hall have been vivisected and rechristened into examination halls. Speaking
of change, I too have undergone transformation. I believe I've become more
tolerant, and hopefully tolerable. This growth is partly a result of the extensive exposure to human
nature that we, as medical professionals, experience. However, the majority of
this change can be attributed to the incredible friends I've made along the
way. They are extraordinary human beings (you know who you are), and their
presence has made it easier for me to embrace and appreciate other individuals,
as well as love and accept myself. This newfound perspective ignites a desire
within me to become a better doctor—a compassionate healer who can genuinely
alleviate the suffering in this world plagued by complexities and sorrows.
turning a new page of life is deficult and entering the new erA is exciting at same time
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